I have been involved in the PTSA for 3 years now, this year taking on a more critical role. I am the Secretary of our schools PTSA, I took this on knowing that I could make a difference and to have my thumb on the pulse of the school. Well it is the end of the year, and I have to decide whether to be this involved again next year.
I love the PTSA, it has forced my husband and I to become more involved with the school, and now Teachers and Students know who we are. I love the purpose that the PTSA gives me, the activities and the busy-ness that it creates, and the fact it is selfless. The work really has a way of taking me out of my own head and applying my energy towards brighter things. With all of the stress, at the end of the day, it makes me happier.
My husband being the Vice President for the past 2 years it has really taken a toll on our family. The exhaustion that I get sometimes is so crippling that I can only walk down the stairs from getting out of bed to just sit in the recliner before I am totally wiped out. I am not lazy, I am not bored, I am weak and exhausted. So in saying this I don’t think that I could take on a larger roll than Secretary.
Vice President has been brought up, and I have accepted as long as a President is found. I will not be able to fulfill President no matter what. It is so hard to find the balance of “Use it or Lose it” and “Stress will cause further setbacks”. I am more concerned with thinking clearly. I have had a few major mishaps this year that have really shown my lack of cognitive resources. I cannot be a leader if I doubt myself, which sucks, which really sucks!!
So in closing I am still pushing to stay involved but in a lesser role. Which is just, ok. I am disappointed that this is such a hard decision but, you sometimes have to make choices based on what you can live without. The joy the PTSA gives me out weighs the agony. And I will take joy anywhere I can get it.
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